The Mind of a FoxyLox

Why oh why?

2012-01-16T01:33:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I find girls behaving bitchy-ly quite silly..

It's already a Man's world out there, and hard enough for us women to be taken seriously as it is.

Does not help it when other females (be it at work, or school, or even acquaintances) Bitch and gossip about other girls.

Come on~! Where is the love? Did the last generation of feminists fight so hard for women's right, so women in this generation can tear each other's throats out to get ahead?

Humans can be so cruel to each other sometimes. If they can do cruel things to other humans, what more to beings they consider lower than themselves?

Sigh, the world would be a better place if more people were to be more tolerant.

Good and Bad day..

2011-10-11T00:16:00.003+08:00

Today has been a day of good and bad news...

Bad news was, my grades have been slipping.. >.<

I am no longer nominated for Best Student of the Month. I guess it's a good thing I'm not nominated, because after 3 months, I've sorta taken it for granted. This is a good chance for me to maintain my standards and be better. Good motivation for me! I will be better this month, and get nominated again for OCT! I CAN DO IT!

Now for the good news.

Firstly, my Boss and Chef have worked things out and all will be restored @ work.. Ok, not everything restored, but I think this incident has taught us that nothing is to be taken for granted. We have to work at it, especially since we are all friends. Relationships between people takes a lot of work, even if they are close friends or work colleagues and even family members too. That's a lesson I will be keeping in mind for a long time.

Secondly, the bf and I are confirmed to get our own flat! Such an awesome stroke of luck, considering there's like 98 available flats vs 588 (including us) applications! And considering we only had 2 chances as compared to others who might have extra chances. The flats will be ready in 2014, so that's 2.5 years to save up for the renovations and the wedding. I'm not too fazed about it, because it is a long way to go, but still very happy..

And no, the bf hasn't proposed yet, but I will make sure he does before I agree to marry him.. Which is 2.5 years down the road.. =P So technically, I am engaged in the eyes of the law, but dun congratulate me yet. I might change my mind.. Haha...

So yea, all that happened in a day for me.. =)

The good outweighed the bad. My life is pretty awesome.. Haha..

Take care y'all.. Peace!

Teenage years...

2011-10-05T01:46:00.003+08:00

I went to the Westlife concert yesterday and it was epic! Lol.. I remember listening to Westlife when I was about 13 and still listen to them on and off.. They are still as good, but all are already married with kids.. Which makes them even more delicious.. Haha..

I always classify Westlife as a clean-cut band, maybe because they were all considered 'old' when they became famous. Anyhows, the concert made me fall in love with them again, and I am digging up all the old BOYbands that I used to listen to.

I remember a1, followed by Westlife and finally Blue.. Blue was the group I had the biggest crush on, until they broke up..

Listening to them always brings me back to my teenage years, when I had the most fun, learning about true friendships and having my first crushes, to doing rebellious stuff (like sneaking outta the house, not going home after classes and just in all having heaps of fun but getting into loads of trouble with the parents..)..

I will post my favourite songs from each individual band, which I still LOVE LOVE LOVE to this day..

Westlife - More Than Words

a1 - Like a Rose

Blue - Best in Me

Yes yes.. I am a sucker for love songs.. But they are so timeless..... =P

Aite, that's it from me.. Take care peeps!

Dramas I do not need..

2011-10-02T20:24:00.003+08:00

Work has been nothing but drama after drama after drama...

All because everyone has their own strong personalities.

I get dragged into all these and this has affected my mood to go to work.. Sigh~!

I hate dramas and politics..

Now, I've become an alcoholic.. Drinking so I can relax and not think about anything.. Not a lot, but more recently.. And it's not to have fun, but to escape from my work problems which I shouldn't even be worrying about..

Sigh... So tired..

Music moments....

2011-09-24T00:08:00.002+08:00

I remember moments of my life with music.. Listening to certain songs reminds me of the feelings and the people I had the moments with..

It's the same with smells. If I smell a particular familiar smell, I will remember that specific person. Haha..

I feel that moments, be they good or bad, are good for us, because they help us grow and mature. Help us get through tough and difficult times more easily, by giving us more determination because if we've been through something just as bad, what could possibly make us give up?

Anyways, had a good chat with Rui (Hophead) and was a really good catch up.. Haha! Need to do more catch ups like these!

Best is through MSN, since it's so much more convenient...

Aight, time for me to go to bed~! Love you all~!

Politics..

2011-09-01T21:54:00.002+08:00

I hate politics.. Period!

Especially when my working environment has it~! So tiring to have to tiptoe around everything, and to work according to the mood around. I just wanted to have a nice, cheerful positive atmosphere where I can grow.

Sigh.. Super super emotionally tired now.. People need to learn how to grow up and handle things like adults.

So annoyed that I'm in the middle of things that's not my business...

Anyways, I'm gonna go have a rest~! TIRED!

Have a good weekend! It's Friday Friday! YaY!

So in love..

2011-08-31T01:32:00.002+08:00

with Eric Northman from True Blood! He is sooooooo YUMMY!

Haha, men like that is bad for business.. For the average boys anyways..

I am soooooooooo hooked on True Blood~! I can't wait to see how the story between Eric and Sookie goes.. They look so hawt together~!

Why doesn't she just choose him and be done with it!

Anyways, just wanted to gush about him and his sexiness~! Here's a picture to drool over!!

Have a great week!

Worst tired day of my life...

2011-08-30T01:14:00.003+08:00

You know it's the worst day when nothing goes right...

I'm getting quite tired of someone. I know I'm working there, but why is she calling me in the middle of the night and even on my off days?

She's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking ANNOYING!

I really wanna SHOUT AT HER! AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

She calls me to tell me about things that she will repeat to me when she sees me in person, to her son when she sees him and then writes it down to remind us. Why dun she just freakin WRITE IT DOWN AND THAT'S IT!! 1 step is all it takes.

Grrrr! Because of my low morale today, everything did not turn out good. I made 2 customised cakes today and they look like SHIT! Sigh.. I's so not proud of those cakes. =(

If I could turn back time, I would do 10 things differently.. But there's nothing I can do now...

Rant + Update

2011-07-28T09:49:00.004+08:00

I can't stand petty boys/men. People who knows me knows I like to tease mercilessly but good-naturedly. I dun mean no harm but that's how I am.

So when I said something to offend you, I'm sorry. But instead of sooking in a corner and not talk to me, just tell me if you have a problem.

I mean, like seriously. Be a man and man up. Dun be a petty little boy and do the silent treatment..

Grr.. Maybe it's true what they say. When a male gets emo, they do it 1000 times worst than a female.

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Life has been pretty good and fun. I've been pretty occupied and doing what I love. Learning heaps at the same time with very friendly boss and chef.

But I miss my friends. So I propose we set a date and time to have a chat somewhere. Cos I need to catch up with my Aussie friends whom I haven't spoken to in AGES!

So whoever still reads this dead blog. Please comment and set a date with me.. I miss you all.. =(

Aite, that's about it for me now.. Gonna go get ready for work!

Take care~!

Sleepless nights...

2011-06-22T08:59:00.002+08:00

I have been having sleepless nights for the past 2 weeks.. Too many things floating in my head.. So exhausted every morning cause I spend hours tossing and turning in my bed...

Seems like I'm not the only one.. A few of my classmates have been having sleepless nights since we all started apprenticeship, with questions running through our minds..

Even though we are physically and mentally tired, we still can't get to sleep easily..

So stressed..

Anyhoos, will be going to work later and after that some nice cold beer to chillax with...

Bliss

2011-06-15T09:27:00.002+08:00

Days seem to be passing by so quickly. It's already almost 3 weeks since I started my apprenticeship. It's been slightly shaky, because I am quite slow in my work and have been making mistakes. But my Chef and Boss has been extremely patient with me, which I am thankful for. Everyday, I will go home and review the day's happenings in my head and think of how I can better improve my speed and make myself more useful.

Haven't really had the motivation to do any baking at all, which I should probably do because I need to practice my banana muffins, vanilla sauce and flan parisien for my practical test. We made yummy pies for class yesterday, and we'll be making more yummy tarts today. I wanna learn how to make some quiche lorraine.

The BF has been quite supportive with the late nights so far. Because we haven't spent much time since my schedule started, he has been showing his affections quite a lot. Haha..

So nice to be woken up by a kiss before he goes off to work, either on the cheek or the hand.

That's about it from me I guess.. Days have been almost the same, just different days. Will post again when there's more news.. =P

Take care people~!

Thoughts on my first day..

2011-05-27T09:16:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was my first day of apprenticeship. I am so glad I got posted to this place. It is warm, casual and friendly. The first 3 hours were slightly awkward for me, because I was shy and unsure of my boss and colleagues. But they were really nice and tried to teach as much as they can while doing their work.

Like I said previously, I hope to be able to help as much as I can. Which was why I stayed back an extra 3 hours to help them out with cake orders that needed to be out today. Partly was because I felt quite bad if I were to leave while they still had unfinished things to do.

My boss is easy-going and funny, while Nurin, my other colleague is very friendly and chatty. The both of them together is funny to watch too, because they argue all the time, but are able to work together seamlessly when the time comes.

Today will be the 2nd day. Hope I will be able to still look forward to working 6 months down the road. Haha!

Have a great week people... The weekend is here soon~!

No time...

2011-05-02T17:01:00.003+08:00

So many things I want to do, but too lazy and not enough time to do.. It's been a long time since I updated, and nothing much has changed. Other than the fact my 1st term is about to end and after the break is over, it's time to be at the workplace.

I went for interview @ my new apprenticeship site, and I love it. I know it's gonna be hard work, and I will give my 200%. I hope I get to learn and be useful to my boss, who happens to be an alumni of my school. I'm feeling a bit pressured because he cannot fail, he has to make sure his business is successful and I am gonna be helping him.

1 good thing about being assigned to that place, is that they do customised cakes, which I am very interested in. They also operate like a cafe, which I have some experience in, from making coffee to serving customers. So I think I can be a great help to them.

On other stuffs, I will miss school once I start my term 2. I will miss my classmates more, actually. Haha.. The seniors always say to enjoy our 'honeymoon' in school, because when we go out for our apprenticeships, it's gonna be a bumpy ride for you to get used to. I am getting used to a life of hard work. I make sure I am more proactive in class, and be more initiative.

But as good as I can be, I find myself being more lazy at home, when it comes to doing the housework. Haha.. When I get a chance to be home, I will stay in bed all day and be a slug. Which is bad, in some ways, especially when I wanna be extremely productive, like doing my assignments, making more baked goods at home for practise and keeping up with friends.

I've also learned to be grateful for the little things in life that make me happy. Like the smell of my hammies' clean bedding (I know it's weird, but it's a nice woody, grassy smell), the smell of something baking in the oven, the smell of rain after a hot day and the smell of my house when I get home from a bad day. This little things help me feel more positive, when tiredness and bad days bring me down. I am trying to be more positive now, as I know my attitude will help me in keeping my passion alight for the next 10 years to come.

That's about me for now. Till I post again.

Everyone take care of yourselves and your loved ones.

Think happy and positve thoughts, and be grateful for what you have, instead of being negative for what you don't have.

Peace, Inky~!

Busy like a Bee..

2011-04-03T18:35:00.004+08:00

Busy busy Sunday for me~! I got up @ 9 and went for some grocery shopping. After I got home, stayed in the kitchen all day, making Roasted Pork and Vienna Cookies.

Roast Pork

Vienna Cookies which I learnt from class. Also had practice with piping them cookies.

I was gonna make some Challah Bread, but my yeast are like 2 years expired and all dead, they did not even do anything to the bread.

Haha.. I need to go buy myself an digital scale. My Ikea normal scale is like so inaccurate. Everything I make tastes a bit off.. Now I'm so tired. Still have ironing to do for the whole week and after that, I am free!

Spent the whole of Saturday just lazing around watching movies. Felt like a slug in a cabbage patch. Awesome rest day. I had too much sleep though, cause I couldn't get to bed at night. Need to sleep slightly earlier tonight, or I will fall asleep during lecture tomorrow.

Last week was a pretty depressing week for me. We have started going into the kitchen for lessons, but because of the physical work and confusion, by the end of the afternoon, my whole class all felt so drained. Mentally and physically. I've come to realised that I need to toughen myself up to survive the next 3 years. I need to make myself into a tough cookie! So that I will not be bullied or even waver from my goal!

RAWR~!

Ok, that's about it for this week. I will try to blog more consistently. Try is the word here.. =P

Anyways, hope everyone have a good week ahead. Take care and lots of love!

Dramas!

2011-03-27T20:52:00.004+08:00

I've been doing nothingbut catching up on my dramas and friends this weekend.. So awesome to have a free weekend to do my own stuffs. The songs for the regionals in Glee are like Awesome!!! Get it right is so emotional, and Loser like me is so inspirational and fun!

Get it Right

Loser like me

The reason why I like Glee is that they tackle problems that youths face everyday. Homosexuality, bullying because one is different, the issue of teenage pregnancy etc. It's done with lots of singing and inspirational speeches and realisations. The best thing in that episode is that.. Blaine and Kurt finally KISSED!! I love it when boys kiss! I'm all for GAY LOVE! =P

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Had fun double dating with my best friend yesterday. She and her bf are so cute together. And her bf is such a nice easy going guy. We had dinner @ a joint named Skinny Pizza and the food was alright. The company was better, but their truffle fries were TO DIE FOR! So YUM!!! Next time I go over, I am gonna try their Truffle mushroom pizza! Oh noes! My bf is gonna be poor because I like all the expensive foods.. Haha.. Foie Gras and Truffles are now my new favourite guilty indulgence.. =P

Anyways, I'm happy my best fren is so happy now.. Her bf is genuinely in love with her. I hope they can last. =)

Ok, it's time to go.. I have to do some household chores and get ready to sleep soon. School starts tomorrow. I can't believe time is passing so fast. The weekend seems to be over in a flash. Oh well, time flies when you're having fun~!

Have a great week everyone. =) Take care and lots of love!

Time is really flying past!

2011-03-11T23:47:00.003+08:00

It's already been 3 weeks since I started school. So far, I'm doing alright.. Getting used to waking up at 5.30am in the morning, and coming home at 7pm. Sometimes later when I have to work at the clinic. Not much time left for any socialising except for classmates. Off days are usually spent sleeping in or doing housework.

Met up with Sock tonight, and it's a great feeling to be able to interact and catch up with someone whom I haven't met in a while. It's always good to be updated on what others are doing, so I make it a point to meet up with friends once in a while.

Everyone becomes so busy, as we all get engrossed in our own life and have more responsibilities. I guess that's a huge part of being an adult and being able to take care of yourself, and hopefully others as well when we get settled in.

Finished with a practical examination and the day 21 review test today. Written exam in 2 weeks time, and next week is gonna be the World Gourmet Summit which will be held at my school. I hope I get to meet famous chefs! =P

I wasn't thinking about doing a new post but since I was free and have been putting it off, decided to do just a short update.

Also, a celebrity blogger I follow posted on my comments~!!! Highlight of the night... Hahahaha!!!

So suah gu (mountain tortoise)! Anyways, it's friday, so I'm gonna go wash up and concuss..

Have a great weekend everyone..

Peace~!

Yay yay yay~!

2011-02-22T17:41:00.001+08:00

Finally!

I survived!

2011-02-20T20:01:00.003+08:00

my first week in culinary school.

So far, it's been an awesome week. There are heaps of stuffs we have to learn and memorise, but it's all good because the Chefs (Instructors) are although all serious-looking, are really nice and friendly. The classmates are great too. All so friendly and chirpy, even the DCA (Diploma in Culinary Arts) are nice and super outgoing. It's a huge mish-mash of different cultures as the class consists of nationalities ranging from Malaysia to Brazil.

We have lunch provided in school and so far, it's been quite nice. I was gonna post everyday's lunch but I dun have all the pictures as of now. So maybe tomorrow or sometime this week.

Anyways, time to do some housework and then some reading before going to bed early.

1 thing not cool about school, waking up @ 5.30am to get ready for school.

That's about it from me. Will update soonish.

Have a great week people, and take care~!

How I met your mother?

2011-02-11T00:31:00.002+08:00

I've just started watching How I Met Your Mother and I must say, as much as I find it funny and enjoyable, I totally totally dislike the lead character, Ted Mosby.

He comes across as being a super desperate man, trying to fall in love with every woman he meets, thinking they are the one he's gonna marry! I hate indecisive guys like that. So annoying! I'm almost at the end of Season 1 and he almost cheated on his gf of a LDR for Robin! What a DOUCHE!

He's the only thing I dislike about the show, because everyone else, is super FUNNY! Especially Neil Patrick Harris.

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Speaking about annoying people, how about 1 that's a total jerk and hypocrite? When I was dating him, he forbade me from associating with my ex and close guy friends. And a few years later, here he is, on FaceBook TRYING to add.me.as.his.friend.

Ha.

And guess what too.

Am.

Attached.

See what a hypocrite that guy is.

As if I wanna be his friend. I dun like hypocrites.

End of Story.

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Hope everyone have a great weekend! School starts for me next week! Can't wait.

Oh, and to all my friends, Happy Valentine's Day!

Annoyed

2011-01-30T12:54:00.002+08:00

So annoying. 1 thing I hate abt the Lunar New Year is that my mom becomes a raging nagging monster when it comes to spring cleaning. I've already helped her with what I can, which is cleaning the ovens out, the rice cooker area and then today, I did the fridge.

Do you have any idea how much stuff she has in that fridge of hers? So many such that we have 2 fridges at home. I cleaned out as much as I could, the expired jars of items and rotten food. I even used a cloth to wipe the inside out. The rest of the stuffs which I kept are the dried stuff (chrysanthemum flowers, dried goods like oysters/scallops/vegetable looking stuffs), and the new stuff she bought to be consumed during the new year. Of course the fridge is still so packed. BECAUSE IT'S FULL OF YOUR STUFF~!

Not because I did not clean it out like you asked me to, BUT BECAUSE IT IS ALL YOUR STUFF THAT'S STILL INSIDE THE FRIDGE!

GRRRR! Annoying raging monster on the loose.

Worried.

2011-01-28T01:12:00.002+08:00

MilkTea is sick.. She has all these lumps on her body. Sigh.. So worried. I think they hurt, cause when I was checking them out and touching them, she bit me.

Dunno if I should bring her to a vet. Told my bro if he could ask his vet at work what it could be. I hope it's not cancer or tumours or anything serious.

Have been feeling so sad and worried for her. Been super gentle with her this few days. I hope she gets better without seeing a vet. The last time I took my pets to the vet, they all died..

Anyways, hope everyone is well. Have a good weekend!

Feels like insomnia~!

2011-01-24T19:14:00.002+08:00

Been having more of those sleepless night recently. No idea why, but insomnia has been occuring for me quite frequently for the past few months..

Maybe it's 1 of the perils of growing up and being an adult? =P

Maybe I just sleep too much during the day?

Maybe it's my body's way of telling me something is broken inside of me?

No idea but all I know is, I wanna fall into bed now and wake up tomorrow..

Anyways, I downloaded Craig David's Greatest hits album the other day, and I remembered why I used to like him so much. His songs are catchy and his lyrics are meaningful. At least to me. Ha~!

Aite, I'm off to lala land soon~!

Have a great week everyone!

FML!

2011-01-21T16:06:00.002+08:00

Just my luck. I was so confident doing all my parkings and reversing, and I have to get a stingy tester who says I did not check my mirrors and sides.

Annoying! Now I have to do it all over again!

Seriously,

FML!

Reality Tv

2011-01-19T17:41:00.002+08:00

I've recently got a new bundle of channels for my cable TV, and 1 on them shows reality TV and E! News all day long. That's a bad thing because I've realised that they are extremely addictive. Haha.. Been watching and following Keeping up with the Kardashians, Giuliana and Bill and E! News all day long. Also included in the bundle is Food Network Asia and Asian Food Channel.

So many programmes to be watched and not enough Ivys to watch em. Haha.. So it's no wonder I've been spending huge amounts of time vegetating in front of the TV whenever I can. Because Dad uses the TV outside to play his Gran Turismo on PS3, we sorta have a tug of war for the TV in the living room, because whenever he's home, he's on his game. Only time I get to watch it is when no one is around, or when he's off overseas for work.

Other than TV, I've just been playing some games with friends, and watching new American series. Recently downloaded a series titled Preety Little Liars. So far, it's quite alright, but it's kind of like I-know-what-you-did-last-summer mixed in with a little GossipGirl. The girls are all really cute though.

Can't wait for Glee, Bones, CSI, Private Practise, Hellcats and Big Bang Theory to resume.

Been really practising hard for my driving too. Just had my last lesson for today. Test will be on this Friday afternoon, and I've been having butterflies just thinking about the test. I'm such a disaster when I'm under heaps of stress. Sigh. I hope I pass this time round. I'll feel super demoralised if I fail yet again.

Anyways, hope everyone is good and healthy. =) Feels like such a long week already, only half of it is gone. 2 more days to go!

Wish me luck!

My own nest

2011-01-13T00:00:00.004+08:00

It's so hard just trying to get into the queue for a new flat. Sigh..

Seeing others who has already established their own nest makes me sooooo envious and jealous..

Sigh... Why oh why is it so hard to get a new one..............

Unlike in the US, where there's more houses than people can afford, the property prices in Sg is shooting up and up and stays up there too.

So annoying and disheartening. Especially when other people just get it on the first try! This coming 1 would be try number 3.

I hope we will get something soon~!

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On a brighter note, I'm gonna seriously start on that diet I've been pushing back forever. Low carbs, and lots of veges and fruits for me. At least until the Chinese New Year period. =P

I need to be able to fit into those beautiful dresses I bought. This year is hassle-free shopping because I bought everything online. Haha.. Internet ftw!

I got these pretties:

Super girly for me. Fits alright, but I look kind of fat in it. Esp the arms area..

Super skin-tight. I'd better lose some weight before attempting this dress again, or the CNY gorging will fill this dress to its seam!

This one is my favourite! So demure and chinese.. Haha! Gonna get a flower hair accessory and wear it like the model for that day itself!

This one I really really lust for. But it's all sold out. Saded.. But this dress has many many possibilities, don't you think? Wedding dinner/nice family dinner etc. Makes you stand out. Esp when you accessorize it with a thin black belt at the waist. Super hot~!

Internet shopping makes my world all happy and cheery again. No crowds, no rude people spoiling your day, and best of all, in the comfort of your own house~!

I can't wait till it's CNY! It's my favourite festival of all! You get to play non-stop, no work for 2 days straight, see your extended family and best of all.. THE FOOD! NOMNOMNOM!

All my fave dishes can only be eaten during CNY cos mum only cooks it during the special time. I love her braised vegetables in red-fermented beancurd sauce. YUMS! I can eat that on top on white rice all day long! Just thinking about it makes me drool~!

Haha.. Ok! Diet starts tomorrow! Work towards a greater goal for the CNY!

Sorry for boring you guys, but I'm getting seriously distracted here by the thoughts of the yummy foods!

Nites you all! Have a great week, stay safe and healthy!

Raining raining...

2011-01-10T21:30:00.002+08:00

I took the sick day off to rest today, because blocked/runny nose and coughing kept me up all night. The drugs that I've been taking doesn't help me to sleep at all. Grrr...

Resting at home alone is so boring.. No one to talk to, no one to cook for you and take care of you. Totally sucks.. But I did get a much needed rest, and no stress at all today.. Haha..

It's been raining the whole day too. Nice and cold night to fall asleep to. Will take some super drowsy medication soon so I can sleep better tonight.

I dunno if it's just me, but whenever I fall sick, I have this insatiable crave to eat and eat non stop. And it's those foods that I absolutely have to keep away from. Sigh..

Can't wait until I get well, and then it's back to eating my fave foods, and baking up a storm.

4 more weeks until my course starts~! I can't wait!

P.S. Cherry, is it ok for you to gimme the recipe for your pho? =P Thanks heaps!

Under the weather

2011-01-07T17:09:00.003+08:00

It's only 1 week into the new year, and already, I'm down with flu.. Grrr... It's so annoying having the flu, because when your nose is not dripping with disgusting mucus, it's blocked.

I hate breathing with my mouth or 1 nostril and it's so hard to sleep at night. The throat is feeling slightly inflamed too.

Must be all the overindulging I did over the Xmas and New Year's period. Sigh..

Trying not to start on any antibiotics, and just pumping myself full of fluids, Vit C and rest.

Anyways, hope you guys have a great weekend~!

I do...

2011-01-06T01:03:00.003+08:00

Seems like everyone I know has either gotten married, or is about to get married.

Makes me feel quite sad and left out.

I realised that as time goes by, I actually do still feel lonely despite being attached. At least when I was single, I was still fun. Everyone would at least invite me along when events were planned, whether I attend or not.

Now that I've been attached for almost 1.5 years now, I've become boring and feel just as alone as I was before. You would think that when you get attached, you have someone to do things with together. But as time passes, they either have their own stuffs planned, or it's work that keeps them away. I'm usually alone when my other half goes out to meet his friends, or has to work late. Also, because I'm always turning down invitations to go out, my friends have stopped asking me altogether. Which makes me feel more depressed cause I've been left out of those gatherings when I see pictures on FaceBook.

And it makes me sad and depressed when I think about the future. Is that gonna be how married life is? You become old and boring, and you hang out with old and boring couples?

Or is the problem just me? I do go out sometimes, but I feel I've toned down a lot, and just like to spend time at home (either mine or others). It's more casual and less money is spent this way.

This also brings me to another point. I WANT TO HAVE MY OWN PLACE SO BAD! So I can host a quiet get-together instead of going out and being with crowds.

Sigh.. Blogging an entry when you have a pounding headache and feeling slightly down is so hard... Forming proper sentences, trying to put my thoughts out so that it flows is 10 times harder than usual..

Oh well... I'll end here for now..

Will continue when I feel better and more clear in the head and emotional department.

2011 resolutions?

2011-01-03T13:37:00.002+08:00

I've decided not to make any new year resolutions for this year. Mainly because none of them ever get done.

Haha..

However, many exciting things are gonna be happening I hope for 2011.

I'm trying really hard to get my freaking driving license. 2 tests and still no pass, let's hope 3rd time's the charm.

Also, trying to get my own place. Let's hope we'll get lucky soonish.

My class will start officially on Valentine's day this year, which is extremely exciting. I'm going back to school~!

That's about the few things I'm most excited about this year. I foresee myself being very busy for the next 3 years, which is a good thing.

That's about it for now.

Hope you guys had an awesome countdown and may 2011 be full of happiness, love, great opportunities and endless good memories for you all~!

Love and Peace,
Inky~

Feels like...

2010-11-06T23:50:00.003+08:00

The worst day of my life today..

I dunno why, but today feels like a 'Let-all-Yell-at-Ivy' day. It started first thing in the morning after I woke up.

Sigh..

Seems like everyone is taking me for granted in the house. I'm feeling super tired as it is, but I have to do some many things which apparently is still not enough in my mom's opinion. My mom even commented that it looks as if I'm renting the house from them and not a part of the family considering I do not help around the house.

That's just crap, because as far as I know, I chip in for the utility bill, help with dinner, wash the dishes and help with laundry. Hell, I'm even paying my own bills, which I've been doing ever since I started working full-time. That's more than what my free-loader brother does, but he's got a free pass cause he's a boy, and the favourite in the family.

Everyone can see that my parents favour my brother more than me, except for my mom. She thinks I'm jealous. I'm just angry he gets free passes all the time, whereas I try so hard to prove myself and all I get is crap from her.

Grrr.. Not a great day for me..

Plus I have a sick person to look after, so that's another ungrateful cranky person giving me crap.

Also, that time of the month is upon me. So I'm starting to be cranky and emotional as hell. Which sucks big time..

Maybe I really just need time and space to myself. Clear my head a little. I really need a place of my own. Somewhere away from the family..

Feeling so tired sometimes, all I wanna do is to crawl into a hole and never come out..

Maybe just mood swings..

I'll be better tomorrow.. I guess...

Anyways, have a great Sunday everyone.

P.S. Really happy for a friend who has finally found someone special. You deserve to be happy, being the greatest person ever, in my opinion. Wish you both happiness and bliss~! =P

Complicated

2010-11-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

Sorry I haven't been posting..

Things have been a little complicated and yet simple at the same time..

A lot has been going through my mind. Haven't been sleeping well cause of the things running through my mind when I'm trying to fall asleep. I never used to have that problem as far as a year ago. I guess as people grow up, so does their responsibilities and the things that worry them.

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A small update about what I've been up to:

- Tried to apply for a flat but was unsuccessful. So just gonna keep looking and trying. If we're lucky, might be able to get a place maybe in 3-4 years time.

- Gonna be going back to driving. After a 3 months hiatus, I've completely lost touch with everything to do with a car.. Haha..

- Waiting for my diploma to start. It's in Feb 2011, and somehow it seems so far and yet so near. I'm having a bit of nervousness about the course. I hope I dun do too bad. Worst would be me being super lazy. I've never really been a person who can motivate herself. =P

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The thing about parents is that we'll always sorta be their babies forever. There's many different types: the coddling ones (who still does your laundry and make you dinner even in your 30s), the encouraging ones (who can make you believe you truly can succeed in whatever you wanna be) and the ambitious ones (who signs you up for music/dance/acting/foreign languages etc lessons).

And then there's my parents. My dad doesn't really care about what I become cause I am a girl. And that means eventually, I will get married and be out of his hair by then. My mom is very mood-oriented when it comes to dealing with us kids. If she's a bad mood, she scolds/complains/nags at everyone. If she's in an awesome mood, she'll be laughing/buying stuffs/having fun with you.

I guess I'm like that to a certain extent. But the only difference is, I'm very protective about what I call mine. That includes my room, my lifestyle, my friends and my boyfriend. As much as I want to protect what is mine, sometimes she does get to them.

I know in some ways she cares for me, but her words tend to be harsh, almost to the point where she will draw blood when she strikes to win. You'll feel like the lowest scum ever to exist in this world and you'll hate everyone for it.

So what does one do, when she's criticises your boyfriend? Would you tell him? Or keep it from him to protect him from the mental torture?

For me, I always tell the truth because in a way, I hoped he would take it as a feedback, and try to do better. But being a stubborn man, he gets angry. After being with my mom for all my life, the only way to diffuse the whole situation and get her off my back, is to pretend and play-act in front of her. That's how me and my brother survived. So that's what I suggested him to do to get her off his back.

My bf however, hates doing that. He thinks if you were to do something, why should you do it so ppl can see. He doesn't understand it as self-preservation and it's hard for me to explain when he doesn't get it. I feel he's not trying hard enough but then again, nothing is ever good enough for my mom.

I love my mom, dun get me wrong, but she's so frustrating sometimes in her thinking, it kills me. Like I wanna shake her so hard until she gets it.

Sigh...

It's late and I'm tired. Sorry if this post didn't make sense.. Just needed to get it off before I go to bed..

Anyways...

Have a good week everyone.. Take care~!

Clumsy

2010-10-17T23:53:00.003+08:00

So, you people who read my blog knows how clumsy I can get..

Today, while preparing dinner, I had 2 accidents.

Both accidents are 'corn'-related..

First, while trying to break a whole cob of corn into 2 pieces, I accidentally sliced my finger. I have a cut there now, and it's not so bad considering I have a waterproof plaster on it now.

Second, while trying to fish the cooked corn out onto a dish, it accidentally slipped and dropped onto my lap.

I'm telling you this because I have this burn mark pattern on my thigh that is super hilarious looking.

Here's the picture.

Corn-burn~!

Haha, so cool in a sadistic type of way right? This is the most awesome burn mark I have ever had. =)

Anyways, time for me to go to bed.. Have a great week every one..

Brownie..

2010-10-11T22:25:00.001+08:00

I'm super craving for some brownies now, so I have no mood to blog.

I have a few topics in mind to write up actually, but that time of the month is upon me, and all I wanna do is eat and be lazy, because of the stupid cramps.

So I think I should be ok to blog by this week.

Sorry for ignoring this space..

Hope everyone is well and fine~!

Spring?

2010-09-22T08:33:00.002+08:00

I just read Cherry's post on Spring, which is her favourite season. I wished I knew how Spring is like.

Living in Singapore, we also have 4 seasons: Hot and humid, hot and dry, wet and humid, wet and cold.

The first time I went to Sydney, it was Summer I think. It was in March, so I dunno what season it was. Anyways, I liked it, because the sun was scorching hot, BUT there was a nice clean cold breeze to cool us off. Unlike in Singapore, the sun is scorching hot, but there's no breeze at all..

Sigh..

I miss Australia. I wanna go for a holiday there again and meet all my super friends.. Haha..

Maybe next year, if it's possible. Not sure if travelling can be fit into the next 3 years, considering I'll be starting my diploma and then working non-stop. But I can still hope.

On to other topics, Eric (Belmore from WoW) is coming to Singapore this week.. Haha, did not meet him before in real life the last 2 times I was in Sydney, so I'll be hanging out with him tomorrow. Haha.. Not sure where to bring him though, cause when I go out, I go shopping with girls.. Haha..

But we are definitely gonna eat non-stop! Local food, here we come!

That's about it for now. =)

Have a great week everyone..

Annoyance

2010-09-19T17:08:00.002+08:00

It annoys me to no ends, when you watch movies depicting history and you realise that it was a common practice for men back then to have mistresses and concubines.

Look at the French and English court, whereby a King can be married to his Queen, but visiting their ladies-in-waiting every single night. The Chinese Emperor and his hundreds of concubines. Even if they are not royalty, if men can afford it, they too can have mistresses and concubines.

Were there no such thing as monogamy back then?

Good thing we women have come a long long way, and DEMAND monogamy from our partners. Makes me feel proud and strong when women are now able to demand divorce when their other half cheats. Also makes me proud that some laws help us by making sure the guy gives us alimony, especially if there are kids involved.

Grrr...

Rant over~!

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Nothing much has been happening to me. My brother finally passed his driving test and is a legal driver now. Haha.. Dad bought a new manual car that we get to use once his Evo 10 is fixed. =P

So I'm working hard towards getting my licence end of this year I hope.

For my dieting, I haven't been doing much. But I have cut down on my food intake, drinking more water, eating my supplements and squeezing in some exercise when I'm not too lazy.

That's about it.

Hope you people have a good week ahead..

It's time..

2010-09-02T00:41:00.003+08:00

For drastic actions...

Another month has gone, and I've put on another kilogram. I thought I still had that fast metabolism that has been with me through my teenage years. Evidently, it has left me. So it's time for me to start dieting and to start my hard core exercise regime.

Gonna go get myself a new swimming suit tomorrow, then the schedule starts next week! Running in the evenings and swimming in the mornings...

Goal is to shave off the 6 kgs by the start of November. I've been falling sick a lot too.. Maybe it's because of the unhealthy lifestyle I have been living. I just got well last week from a bout of throat infection, and now, my throat is starting to hurt again. Need to get my health back together. Been feeling super tired daily, even when I've had a full 8 hours of beauty sleep. And my complexion has taken a bad turn too.. Looks like I need to start back on my vitamins and supplements.

Really need to start taking care of myself. So easy to tell people what they should do when you can't even follow your own advise. Ha!

Also, my back has been bugging me for the past few months. I really should go see a chiropractor for it, but it's gonna cost so much and I'd rather not spend the money on medical fees.

Oh well, that's all the update I have.. Wind-drying my hair now so I can sleep soon.

Have a safe week everyone. =)

Family

2010-08-29T20:36:00.004+08:00

I seriously need to get it off my chest..

You either like or dislike them.

For me, most times, it's dislike.

I can't help but feel my mom hates me. Like I'm not hers.

Like because I am a girl, I am useless and therefore less important compared to my brother.

She doesn't encourage me, doesn't give me support. Always putting me down, and making me feel like crap. And when she's in a bad mood, I'm conveniently the one she vents it on.

When I help out at home, she takes it for granted. When I do nothing, she screams at me and says she's not the maid. She's constantly trying to get rid of me from the house because I mess it up, according to her.

I am the only person who helps her out at home. I help to wash the dishes whenever there are some in the sink. I help to vacuum and mop the floor once in a while. I help her when she's cooking. I help cook for the family when she's at work. I am the other person who does more work around the house than the rest of the family.

And I get shit constantly everyday.

Sometimes, I just wanna run away from this house as soon as possible. See if she needs me then, when there's no one around to help her.

GRRRR...

Rant over...

I still feel quite sad though.

I will never ever be like that to my children. I will treat them equally whether they be boy or girl. And I will always be close to them, and say I love them all the time..

Elated!!!

2010-08-25T23:48:00.003+08:00

So.... Remember the side project I've been hinting about? I didn't really wanted to tell anyone cause I didn't wanna be super disappointed when I do not get into it. I just got a reply back and....

I am going back to school!

I've enrolled in the Diploma in Pastry and Bakery Arts! So happy!

I will start classes next year, and I can't can't wait!

The School I've enrolled in is pretty reputable in Singapore, with their graduates working in hotel kitchens all over Singapore. And Singapore do have great hotels..

So anyways, it's a good thing the course will be heavily subsidised by the Government, or I would have to shell out 23k for a 17 months course. Not sure how much subsidy though, but more than half, that I am sure of.

After almost a month of waiting, I can relax and wait for school to start now. =)

Finally I can pursue my dreams! Hopefully eventually, I can open my own cafe! Heehee.. But first, I need to get that Diploma!

Hope you guys have a great remaining week. I know mine just became better.. =P

Sometimes...

2010-08-23T13:33:00.002+08:00

You know how it is, when you get into a relationship.. People stop calling to ask you out because 9/10 times the answer would be no.

Sigh, I dunno if it's possible but sometimes the longer we are together, the further we seem to be drifting away. We fight over little things and we dun do much stuffs together anymore.

Is it how it's supposed to be like? Or do we need to both work hard at it to prevent something like this from happening?

Oh noes.. I have been sucked in~!

2010-08-20T20:28:00.002+08:00

So, out of curiosity, I decided to watch Twilight: New Moon. Gosh, worst idea ever..

Because now, I've been sucked into it..

Sigh, can you imagine being Bella? With 2 hunk-i-licious guys fighting for you. I would totally go for Edward, because I would so love to be a vampire, even though Robert Pattinson is not my idea of how Edward should be.

But Taylor Lautner is super super hot too... His body.. *drools*

Haha...

This is gonna be random but while trying to download Twilight: Eclipse, I found a porn movie titled This isn't the Twilight Saga.. Lol..

I think if they made vampire porn, it would be so totally awesome for me... Hahaha..

Just a thought.. =P

Anyways, have a great weekend guys.. =P

Bad Kitchen Day

2010-08-17T20:20:00.002+08:00

Sigh, I'm having a bad kitchen day today.. =(

I made muffins, and they turn out awful..

I accidentally dipped my finger into hot oil.. And I touched the hot tray while testing whether the muffins are done.

I feel like crap....

What's happening!?!?!?!?

Maybe I'm just tired...

Nothing really...

2010-08-16T22:44:00.004+08:00

Just thought I'd do some blogging..

I was gonna make use of the overripe bananas I had to bake some banana muffins tonight.

Little did I know, after preparing the ingredients needed for the muffins, that my main ingredient would be so super ripe that the insides are black and soggy while they are still in the skins itself. What the hell is that...

Oh well, better luck with the next batch of overripe bananas...

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Also, I saw pictures of an ex. And he looks.... Hmmm.... What's the word... I dunno.. Mixed feelings seeing his pictures, considering I have nothing left of him at all.. Either all thrown away, or sent back to him.

Anyways, the only feeling I have is the happiness I got from the sweet revenge I got from him. All not my doing btw, but brought on by his own silly self and karma.

Life is good. Haha.. Have a good week people!

Blind

2010-08-15T22:14:00.003+08:00

It's so true that Love makes people blind.

It's quite hard when you read about people going through breakups or finding out what they had was all a lie. It's hard because I've gone through it all, and I can still remember the feeling of being so low, and feeling like you are gonna just die of heartbreak. Good thing to know that I have a good support base who helped me through it all. Starting from learning how to pick myself up and regaining control of my life. That effort totally made it worthwhile, especially when I finally got my revenge back. Haha, that will be a story for another time.

Was reading Mooiness' post and I agree with him. Sometimes, it's better to have not loved because then when it's all over, the fall will not be as bad. But then, if you have not taken the leap and loved someone else back, would you have missed out on anything?

Falling in love and entrusting your heart and soul to someone else takes courage. I will do it all over again if I ever had a chance to go back, because I think of it as a learning experience and I would have done a few things differently.

Been listening to Jason Derulo's album and this song is stuck in my head. Which is why I did a post surrounding this song. Hope you like it.

Blind - Jason Derulo

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On another note, since I've been bitten by the baking bug, I might do more baking this coming week. Will post pictures of finished products if I remember..

Have a good week everyone. I'm gonna go to bed now, feeling super tired and sore because Clumsy Me had a great fall again this afternoon. Gonna have a huge ass bruise on the arm!

Incidentally, it's the hungry ghost festival this month too... Be wery wery careful ok, guys!

Starcraft!

2010-08-10T22:14:00.003+08:00

No, I did not buy it. I went to a lan shop and played it. It was fun, but I totally suck at it.. My hands move too slowly, and while everyone has started their attacks and finishing the game, I'm still happily building my base away in my little heaven. Haha..

But seriously, the graphics are so cool and nice. Nice game, but too expensive to buy it and play at home. Also, I refuse to be addicted to another game. Haha..

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Been busy past 2 weeks, baking chicken pies! I finally bought a pastry cutter and having fun making homemade pies from scratch. So far, my pies has been successful. Next up, making puff pastry!

My days have been pretty busy past few weeks. I've been making progress on a little assignment I've been doing. Hope everything goes well, and I can finally complete the little assignment.

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Also, I need to start losing weight too. I have gained 5 kilos in 1 year. I constantly feel fat, and all my clothes are starting to not fit. Sigh. I just went for a slow jog, and I feel like a jellyfish now.

Oh well, PERSEVERE~!

That's all from me I guess. Have a happy week!

P.S. I realize how fun Starcraft can be, but guys... Update your blogs please.. =P

That is all.. Haha..

Big Bang Theory!

2010-08-05T01:44:00.003+08:00

Lol, it's 1.44am now, and I'm still awake baking chicken pies for my buddy, Debs and my BF..

Haha, good thing I can sleep in tomorrow.. So anyways, I've been hooked onto Big Bang Theory.. It's so freaking hilarious! Haha... Plus, those guys play WoW! Funny stuff..

Sheldon is my favourite! He looks super super cute and has zero social skills, which makes it super endearing to me.. Haha..

With a face like that, how can you not like him.. Haha..

Have a great week everyone!

Handle with Care

2010-07-29T10:27:00.005+08:00

I just bought and finished my first Jodi Picoult book last week. I must say, super super sad story. She specialises in novels that questions morals.

For example, the book with the same blog title which I bought, it's about this young girl named Willow who was born with a brittle bone disease. The family is already struggling financially as it is. So the mother, Charlotte decides to sue the doctor for wrongful birth., meaning if she had known earlier about the disease, she would have aborted the baby. Even though everyone will judge her and hate her, if she won, she would have enough money to ensure that Willow would be able to have the best care she can afford in the world. But the doctor she is suing, is Charlotte's best friend.

What would you do?

It's such a case of, I wouldn't know what I would do if I were in the situation type thing. Throughout the whole novel, the characters kept going playing the 'What if?' games. Life is so unpredictable and full of challenges. How does one really cope when you're already burdened with problems as it is?

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Anyways, on a lighter note, I downloaded Jason Derulo's new album and I must say, it's pretty good. There's a song in there titled 'Riding Solo' which totally suits people who just got out of a relationship. This song celebrates being single and being able to go through the phase after breakup.

Hope you enjoy it!

Movies

2010-07-19T00:37:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lack of posts but I've been catching up on a lot of movies, both old and new for the past 2 weeks.. =)

Staying at home is one of the downside of being broke. Lucky for me, I have the internet, which means.. FREE MOVIES, right in the comfort of your own bed. =P

So, here is a list of the movies I watched:

Kick Ass - Awesome movie, imo.. The story itself was with good intentions, but was a bit twisted. But I somehow really really enjoyed it. Funny too.. Haha.. I really recommend this show.

The Mighty Ducks (3 movie series) - I love old skool cheesy movies like these. Back then, all movies were so simple, enjoyable and totally non-sexual.. Haha..

The Private Lives of Pippa Lee - I liked it, the story-telling was very interesting. Hopping from the present, to the past and back again. I also like the people in it. Keanu Reeves was so hawt with that tattoo, and Blake Lively (from Gossip Girl) was really good in the movie.

The A-Team - Hmmm.. I have mixed feelings about this one.. I thought it was alright.. A very macho man/explosions everywhere type action movie. Not my cup of tea..

Girl, Interrupted - I enjoyed it. Left me wanting more though, wondering about the individual characters.

Despicable Me - This one, I caught in the cinema. Surprisingly very funny and good. I usually steer clear away from animated movies unless they are from Pixar, because most of them really sucked in terms of story and humour, but this one here, is a winner! Lame and cute and sometimes, makes you go 'Awwwwwwwwwww......'. Must watch!

Anyways, that;s about it I guess. I'm not a very good movie reviewer, as you can tell from the above descriptions, but I hope it helps.. Haha...

Till next time! Take care!

Major sucks...

2010-07-09T18:19:00.001+08:00

Sigh.. I failed my driving test today.. Major major SUCKS!

I had a cry over it..

No one to blame I guess.. My own mistakes, brought on by nerves and lack of sleep... Oh well..

Better luck next time...

Lazy weekend!

2010-07-04T20:46:00.002+08:00

So, like the title says, nothing much done for the weekend. Except for the usual relaxing stuffs, like laundry, movie and cooking. =)

Went for yumcha on Saturday with Baobao and finally satisfied my 2 month old craving. Haha.. After the yumcha, went to watch RepoMan (starring Forest Whitaker and Jude Law). The movie was not bad, lots of action.. The ending is a bit twisted though. And lots of blood and gore.. Jude Law is pretty hawt too, lean and tattooed.. Too bad he's a cheater.

Went home after that and slacked in front of the PC till it's time for bed.

Woke up this morning and had another lazy day too, spent in bed, rolling around like a slug in a cabbage patch. Haha.. Did the laundry and some cooking.

Ever notice how time flies when you are having fun or not doing anything, just relaxing? Sigh, this awesome weekend just flew past.. Bleah, back to work for me tomorrow..

My driving test is this Friday, I am starting to get the jitters.. Sigh.. Help! Gonna have lessons scheduled for Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday morning. Really really hope I pass first time.

That's all from me today. Hope you guys had an awesome weekend, and a great week ahead! Take care!

MilkTea

2010-07-02T11:35:00.007+08:00

So, here's a post about MilkTea. 1 of my new hammies, the female..

She was born on the 12 Feb 2010, and I got her from a home breeder. She is super cute and fluffy.. She is also super energetic and loves to eat! Her goal in life is to become an explorer, which she does quite often when I take her out of her cage to play with her. She also likes to chew on wires and bra straps.

She has this little cube toy that I bought for her, made out of ceramic and has a hole cut out on each sides except for the bottom, which she likes to sleep inside and pop her head out of the top hole just to look at you when you walk past.

She has a really keen sense of smell because whenever I feed Mantou first instead of her, she will hang onto the side of her cage, eagerly awaiting her nomnoms. Although she is younger than Mantou by 6 days, she is heavier and chubbier than he is.

She has this trick, whereby she tries to act 'cute' so that she will not get into trouble, or try to beg a treat from me. I love this tiny fluff ball of trouble, because she is such a joy to me.

Here's some pictures of her.. =P Enjoy!

On the first day I got her. In this picture, she is grooming herself. Look how soft and fluffy her baby fur is... SO NICE!!

I grabbed her really tight, so that she would be still for this picture. Same first day, and she is still trying to get used to me as her owner.. =P

A week after being with me, in her nice new cage. Here, I just gave her a carrot slice and she's happily munching away.. She doesn't do this anymore, cause she just stuffs food into her cheek pouches to eat later..

Here, her cheek pouches are full of broccoli. Haha.. I love this picture, cause she looked like she got caught stealing food!

These series of pictures were taken just last week.

Having a blast manuvering in and out of my blanket.

Oh no, I got spotted!

Look at that cute furry butt!

Noooo!!! I did not chew the wire!! I swear!!!

Lol, that's all the mischief for now. =)

Update

2010-06-30T18:18:00.002+08:00

Ok, so nothing much has happened after the previous post.. But I feel like I should post something descriptive..... About the crazy weather in Singapore for the past few weeks...

Here's my account for today:
Imagine waking up to a nice sunny morning, with cool breeze, and hitting the showers before starting your day.. After getting ready, you venture out onto the streets to go about your business for the day.. The temperature has risen a few degrees up, and the sun is shining mercilessly on you, the roads has heated up and you can see dust flying about and heatwaves being emitted from the concrete floors... When you reach the train station, you are soaked in your own sweat.. Getting onto the air-conditioned train is a huge relief, albeit a short-lived one as you have to get off after 2 stops..

The sun, which was smiling down on you before, is now hidden behind an huge omnimous group of black clouds.. Once you get into the car to start your driving lesson, it starts to drizzle a little.. The rain lasts for only about 15 mins... After you are with the lesson, you head back onto the streets.. The heat hits you and you start to sweat again... Because of the small amount of rain, the weather has become a lot worst.. Hot, humid, dusty and with your clothes sticking to your body, it's unbearable... And your day has only just started....
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What I just described is a normal day in Singapore.. Just last week, there was so much rain, it flooded Orchard Rd, which is like the shopping district of Singapore.. A really branded boutique, Hermes, was completely flooded..

Sigh, I think we have really screwed up the entire environment with our pollution... I think the end of the world is gonna happen sooner than expected.. I only hope I will not be around to see it happen to me...

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That's about it for today.. =P

Take care of your healths!

I should blog...

2010-06-26T22:46:00.003+08:00

Harlo...

I realised how dead my blog is.. And also with people asking me to blog, I guess I will do it then... Just a short one though, cause nothing much to really talk about..

After that really emo post like 2 months ago, my mood has been better.. No more emo-ness..

I've been busy working hard, and learning how to drive. My driving test date will be on the 9th July, which coincidentally is my father's birthday. I really hope I would be able to pass, because it would mean I wouldn't have to spend so much more on lessons and the test, and also as a gift for my dad. Haha... But the most important factor would be the moolah, since the lessons are totally burning a big fat hole in both my pockets.

My 2 new hammies, Milktea and Mantou are growing fat and chubby, just the way I like my hammies.. Haha, although I like the female more, cos she's more lovable and fat compared to the boy, and smells so much nicer.. Haha..

As for the everything else, it's pretty much the same... Although I'm thinking of making some major decisions for the future.. But I will blog about when the time comes I guess..

That's about it I guess.. I will update more frequently (hopefully) so as to let you know how I've been and what mischief I've been up to.. =P

That's all from me, for now~!

Slipping..

2010-05-06T16:58:00.002+08:00

I feel like I am slipping... Into a dark abyss.. Not really the bottom, but feeling quite down lately..

I have all these negative feelings bottled up inside me, and I seriously hate it. I can do something about it, but the negativity is just crushing down on me.

I've identified a few of the problems that is contributing to the way I feel, but it just seems to much for me to change in a short time.

For one, I feel like an under-achiever. Seeing all my friends doing well in life, makes me feel very inferior to them. Seeing them so happy in their lives and thoroughly motivated to become better, makes me feel less motivated. I feel like I am stuck in a rut with no future prospects for me. I feel really depressed about it and I know I can do something about it, but the negativity just becomes more over-whelming and makes me have short panic attacks/bursts of emotions and I just cannot handle it.

Another problem I know is, I feel like my whole life, I have been waiting. Waiting for everything to come my way. I hate this situation I am in, and even after waiting, things don't usually go my way.

Sigh, I feel so tired lately. What with the bad dreams plaguing me at night, my inadequecies at almost everything I do. Also, doesn't help that I'm not talking to anyone, because I can't really relate how I am feeling properly into spoken language. So I keep it to myself, make myself feel worst, and I cry. Seems to be the only thing that helps nowadays, it is to cry and not say anything.

I am tired.. Of everything...

What
should
I
do
?

When things happen...

2010-05-02T20:43:00.002+08:00

It's always sad when couples are no longer together.. It's even sadder if you know the couple personally.

I have come to realize that people are evil. Sometimes, the most unlikeliest person can do the most evil things to another human being.

Human beings can also do evil things to themselves, and cause self harm.

I guess when someone is feeling down and low, they feel like they are all alone and nothing can help them. But when you hear about people who has gone through worst and lived to tell their story, in hopes of inspiring someone and helping them, it makes you become stronger.

I hope I will continue to be inspired and learn to become stronger.

Pros and cons..

2010-04-15T16:49:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I feel life would be much easier and simpler when one is single. There are many things a single person will not have to worry about when one isn't in a relationship.

But then again... When one is single, there is a lot of things they cannot get from being in a relationship..

Maybe it's true what they say, the grass is always greener on the other side. But when you get to the other side, you might feel that, your side was probably just as good as the other side..

Sigh..

How can people feel loved and unloved at the same time?

Highs and Lows

2010-04-07T01:05:00.002+08:00

A friend once commented that I am a very emotion-driven person. When I am happy, I am all the way on the top.. But when I feel down, I really feel like I hit rock bottom..

So I said goodbye to my dear friend today at his funeral. There were so many people present. If only he would pick up the phone and call any 600 of us to talk. But he already made his choice, and there's nothing we can do. I feel so sad for his family, and the people who loved him, including our circle of friends, who have been crying our eyes out ever since we found out.

Makes you evaluate what is truly important in your life and what's not. Maybe if he learn not to care so much, he might not feel like he's all alone, and do something drastic.

Because I am emotionally driven, sometimes when I feel down, I do feel like taking my own life. But I know I could never do it, because of all the people I love. However, if I were sick with depression, maybe all I can think of is to end everything to solve all my problems.

Sigh, seeing a friend leave us so early, makes me sad.

Maybe I should learn to numb myself. If I'm numb, I will not hurt as much. Getting hurt by the people you love is probably the most devastating thing that can happen to another human being.. And if I dun get hurt, I will be alive..

R.I.P My dearest friend, Tze Xian

2010-04-05T23:33:00.002+08:00

A friend of mine ended his life today.

Many emotions are going through me now. Disbelief and anger are the most prominent ones. However, he made his choice and there's nothing anyone can do now but to respect his choice.

We used to be really close friends, but then circumstances changed but we still catch up once in a while. He was always a happy-go-lucky person like me. No matter what happens, he will always have this cheeky smile on. Whether he be emo or neutral. He loved to sing, and he loved to sing songs that are full of longing for love.

There's a lot of what ifs going on in our circle of friends who knew him. Why he did what he did, and how we could all have helped to prevent this ending. But I think he already decided what he wanted to do.

Since nothing can be undone, all I can say to him is...

To my dearest Tze Xian,

Even though we haven't been friends for a long time, I will always treasure our special friendship. I will sincerely miss all your smiles, your laughter, your silly grins and I will miss all the times we shared.

I hope that where ever you are right now, you have found peace from what you were trying to run away from. I think God must have needed you right away, which is why he took you away from us.

But I know, I will see you again eventually. So I will be waiting for that day, when I will get to meet you again. We will have so much to catch up on. =)

You will always be in my heart because of the friendship I have with you.

A friend who will truly miss your company,
Inky

Disgusted

2010-03-08T00:45:00.002+08:00

I am thoroughly disgusted by cheating spouses.

A local semi-famous and pretty respected film director in Singapore, who is married for 27 years and has 4 kids with her, has been exposed by the mistress. He has admitted to the 2 year affair with a model who is less than half his age. An article about it can be seen here.

If there is anything I really hate, it's cheating spouses. By cheating on your other half, you are breaking the promise you made to her when you first get married. If there's any kids involved, it would be making a fool out of the family.

What's more, the model is not that much of a looker. She is just young and thinks that she is hot. I don't understand how some home-wrecker can become famous overnight.

I can never trust an infidelity from my partner. Firstly, I will never be able to forget and forgive him. Secondly, I will always envision them in my head while they are together, and laughing at me for being a fool. Thirdly, I will never be able to trust him around females again.

So if anything were to happen, it would be the end of everything we had. Whether married or with kids, I will still leave.

Sigh, rant over..

Off to get some sleep now..

Nites everyone and have a good week ahead!

A series of unfortunate events

2010-02-25T16:51:00.002+08:00

This is what I can piece together from the circumstances leading to her untimely demise.

The little Bum, who constantly has prison break on her mind, succeeded a 2nd time on the fateful morning of 23rd February. Somehow, making her way into my kitchen, she found a hole that leads to a covered pipe, which is connected to the sinks. Being a hoarder by nature, I guessed she somehow explored the kitchen area and picked up food which she proceeded to bring back to her nice snug hole.

That same afternoon, my mom was in the kitchen and was doing some dishes when suddenly, water gushed out of that hole my Bum called her new home, because apparently, Bum got the pipe STUCK! Trying to stop the water from flowing, she saw a wet head pop out and immediately thought: 'RAT!'.

Well, what happened next was, my mom (armed with a plastic bag to protect her hand and to use as a glove) picked the Bum up, and threw her into the rubbish chute outside, all the while thinking it was a black, smelly ugly rat.

Sigh... Imagine my surprise when I came home from work that evening to find the tank empty. What was worst was the fact, when my mom came home and I asked her, she told me the 'rat' incident.

When I told my brother what happened, he asked the exact same questions as I did..

'Did you see a tail?'
'Doesn't hamster have tail?'

'Was it moving super fast, was slow as hell?'
'It was moving slowly, but maybe cause it got wet?'

Sigh.. This is what happens when you live at home with parents who cannot differentiate pets from pest...

I need to get a stronger and escape-proof cage..

Bad year for me this year.. Sigh..

Bad start of the tiger year..

2010-02-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

For this tiger at least...

Sigh.

I have been having a streak of very bad luck, and to top it off, making it the worst week ever...

My hamster is gone...

Sigh...

Feel so sad.. =(

Really need to go and pray to appease the bad luck god and hope I get through this year with no mishaps..

It's my birthday~!

2010-02-17T23:09:00.003+08:00

So I turn 24 today..

It is also the 4th day of the Lunar New Year. I took the day off, so I dun have to be super busy today at work (because of all the people who wants to take a sickie off work for a longer holidays) and enjoy my birthday.

Turning another year old actually makes a just a tiny bit of difference. Like how much older I feel now... And mentally, I feel much more mature compared to before..

Today was a nice quiet day spent with the BF.

I woke up pretty late, and was greeted by these 2 extremely red eggs. Haha..

Traditionally, one would get a bowl of mien sien/mee suah in soup cooked with an egg, usually eaten by the birthday person on their special day. The BF didn't know how to make it, so he cooked hardboiled eggs instead. Haha.. Oh well, it was a nice thought and I ate both of them up.. =)

After that, we went over to Ikea and had chicken rice at one of the hawker place nearby. It was crowded with many office personnel out for CNY lunch too. When we were done, we headed over to Ikea to try to find ourselves a computer table big enough for both of our computers. Spent about 2 hours total there. Wanted to have their famous meatballs, but because we were still pretty stuffed from lunch, we decided to skip it as I was gonna make them again for my weekend gathering with some friends. Total damage for the Ikea trip was $555, which included the table, 2 chairs and some other knick knacks. I love Ikea~!

We went grocery shopping after because BF was gonna make me dinner. Haha.. Took a cab home and then he started making preparations.

It was spinach cheese tortellini in a tomato sauce with olives and garlic. YUM! He put in lots of onions and carrots and it was surprisingly good. He even did the dishes too.. Haha.. I could get used to that.

And just when I thought that was as good as the day could get.. He got me these....

Aww.... So sweet..

This has to be the best birthdays of my whole 24 years of life.. Haha.. I wonder what he is gonna do to top it next year.. =P

Thanks to all for the birthday wishes. =)

Red Velvet Attempt

2010-02-16T01:32:00.001+08:00

If anyone wants to know, I'm feeling fine now.. Previous feelings have slowly ebbed away and I am much more understanding now..

So I attempted the red velvet cupcake today. It was a terrific attempt! =)

However, I realized that red velvet cakes are not really my cup of tea.. Sure, the cake was soft and very moist with a hint of cocoa taste, and the cream cheese frosting was divine.. Paired together, they make a wonderful marriage made in heaven. But this marriage, is a little too rich for my taste. 1 was more than enough for me.

But the cake looked awesome lovely, with it's very vibrant red, and the smell of it was yummy.

I would make it again maybe for another 'red' event but not often, seeing as I am gonna be trying to lose weight after the festive season..

Hope everyone had a good V-day and a festive Lunar New Year celebration.

Bummed....

2010-02-12T09:02:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling quite bummed out now..

I recently have been experiencing lots of highs and lows for almost a full week. Seems like it is gonna be part of my life from now on.

Sigh, being on the constant verge of tears, insecurity and then sudden anger does not help my state of mind. When I'm not angry, I feel like crying. I feel lonely even when I am not alone. The feeling gets worst when I'm tired and I can become cranky and abusive. Sometimes, I feel like running away.

I know what's past is past, but when it catches up to you, it seriously sucks like hell..

Sigh, I'm supposed to be feeling festive especially since its going to be Lunar New Year soon, and V-day plus it's going to be my birthday too.. But somehow...

I dun feel anything happy anymore..

I doubt..
I distrust..
I am starting to lose faith..
And I hate this feeling..

gLee

2010-02-08T18:04:00.002+08:00

I watched the whole season in 3 days and omgosh, I'm hooked... Really fun to watch. It's humorous, full of awesome singing and dancing, and cute cast too.. Haha..

Go watch it~!

Ok, back to spring cleaning...
Have a great week~!

Insecure Random Craps

2010-02-04T01:40:00.003+08:00

I hate that feeling. Insecurity. About life, yourself, your future etc etc.. The list goes on.. Makes me feel a bit sad and emo now.. Not sure why, but maybe it's the hormones and some unresolved issues.. Sigh..

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Had a little conversation with some friends about this other friend whose gf was caught going to her ex's house. The couple are still together, but going through a little rough patch. Personally, if it were me, no matter how much I trust my bf, I will not forgive him. Especially if he lied to me about his whereabouts. I mean come on, you have no alibi and 2 person in a house = infidelity in my books, whether the sexual act took place or not.

At least if you met in a public place, is still less incriminating. But then again, why would you still be hanging out so often with an ex?

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You know how hard it is to heed your own advise when you are in a certain situation yourself? Like how I say I would never tolerate infidelity in a partner, but when it happens to you, do you truly think you can just let go of the relationship without a second thought?

I know how hard it is to actually stick to what you believe in. I've done some stuffs that's quite bad in my life. But then you have to pick up the pieces and continue on, instead of just giving up and laying there to die. I've also learn a lot from all the mistakes I made.

I guess at the end of the day, everyone should be grateful to be alive, surrounded by your loved ones with a shelter over our heads and food in our tummies.

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I'm so sorry for this random post. Just everything going through the mind right now, with all the different emotions I'm feeling right now.

Anyways, hope everyone have a great remaining week. =)
Take care of your health!
XOXO

The Great Hamster Escape

2010-01-28T01:12:00.002+08:00

So, I had an awesomely exciting day today.. Bumbi decided to prison break out of her cage for a short tour of the house..

When I woke up this morning, I couldn't find the sneaky lazy critter anywhere. On closer inspection, found out she was no longer in the cage. That was one of the biggest worry I had ever since I got her and it really happened.

So I panicked and called up my bf, asking him if Bum was still in her cage when he left this morning, which he confirmed that she was still snoozing when he left for work. Called my mom next and she said Bum was gone by the time she went to work.

Using my deduction skills, I came to the conclusion that she went in the direction of either:
1) My bro's bedroom
2) The spare room
3) The kitchen
4) Onto the balcony and off it (My first hamster jumped off the balcony and landed 6 floors down onto the concrete floor below)

So after searching for about an hour, I gave up. Since I had to work, I went ahead to get ready and made myself some lunch. Then I decided that if she was still around the house, maybe closing the doors and thus cutting off the chances of her roaming about the house, would help. Before I left for work, I decided to locate the torchlight which would aid the BF in the search of the escapee hamster.

So I went into my bro's room, to have a last look through, and guess who I found behind the door, looking like she had a party with the dust bunnies. I was so elated and shocked at the same time. So I made a dash for her with my bare hands, and she made the loudest squeak I had ever heard a hamster make, which totally freaked me out. I was afraid a few hours of freedom had made her wild and she would bite me in order to get away from me, so I made use of my dad's fish net and I finally manage to catch her after 10 mins of trying to get to her.

After placing her back in her cage, I breathe a sigh of relief and went off to work, 15 mins late. Now we have improvised the cage a little so that there will not be a 2nd escape from her.

Just a normal day in being the owner of a over curious and inquisitive hamster. =)

Good thing we found her though. I cannot stand to think she died of starvation in some obscure corner of the house and is rotting away... Eww...

Introducing....

2010-01-23T15:33:00.002+08:00

The newest member of the family, BumBi!

=)

Stoner Bumbi!

Exposed!

Berry! Nom nom nom nom...

Sooo...

2010-01-18T22:59:00.002+08:00

I know I haven't been blogging... But then, I'm just so lazy nowadays, and with the LunarNew Year just around the corner, work has been busy and I have to help out around the house more..

So I got my left wisdom tooth out today.. Scary ass experience if you ask me.. I already hated going to the dentist, and this experience just makes it even more freaky..

First off, I had to get a minor surgery as my wisdom tooth was partially out of my gums and lying on it's side (or back..). So the dentist had to cut open my gum, and then saw the tooth into 2 parts then pull them out after.

After he injected the numbing liquid into my gums, I felt nothing and from then on, just loads of drilling and tugging.. I was done in like 30 mins.. The whole process was pretty bearable, but now that the painkillers have wore off, it hurts like HELL!

I'm have to be constantly on painkillers so that the pain doesn't get to me.. Makes me feel like an addict. I could still do normal housework around the house when the painkillers dull the pain.

So I have 5 day home rest, and no eating of normal human food. Joy to the 3rd week of Jan.

Alright, that's about it I guess.. Will update more when I feel like it. =P

Lazy lazy..

2009-12-23T11:22:00.001+08:00

I suck so much this year...

Haven't sent out Christmas cards.. Haven't gotten any presents for anyone...

Just plain lazy lazy lazy~!

Sorry people.. =(

Nothing from me this year.. I will make it up to you.. =(

Forgive me!

PotLuck Party

2009-12-17T10:56:00.004+08:00

So the potluck party held at my place came and went. I think it was a success, considering everyone had fun. =) The food was great, company was good, and the entertainment was fun!

Some of the guys could cook, which is a great surprise. Haha.. We're now all getting ready for our X'mas gathering. I love this group of friends, spontaneous and funny. It's always great to hang out with them.

Now, on to the pictures.

The food before

The food after.. =P

People taking turns to eat @ the table

People starting the gig on Wii.

Guitar Hero Band 1

Guitar Hero Band 2

While the band was jamming...

These guys were playing Munchkin.

My yumyum tuna macaroni salad. Pardon the appearance, it tasted better than it looks. =P

The serious game faces on them all.. What are they doing?

Wii Tennis, of course!

Everyone happy and having fun!

So that's about it for the pictures.. It was kind of nice to have friends hanging out at home without spending too much monies. A good thing about having the house to yourselves, you can entertain friends and it's so much quieter.

Plus, it's easier to keep clean, because you dun have too many people messing up the place once you've cleaned and tidied the place. This experience makes me wanna have a place of my own so much. I've made some plans regarding the future. And I'm feeling pretty good about it. =)

I guess that's about it for this post. Have a good week everyone.

=)

Old School...

2009-12-10T17:18:00.002+08:00

I just found this blog (or rather someone linked it to me) and I was looking through her song list and omg, all the songs I used to listen to and groove to.. Haha.. She is also named Ivy and my bf was telling how she's a Taiwan version of me..

But she is so much prettier than me.. Heehheee...

I miss the songs in her playlist.. Here are a few of the songs that brings back memories..

Slow Down - Bobby Valentino
Dip it Low - Christina Millian
Gimme That - Chris Brown (btw, he looks so gangsta now with his tattoos.. Hawtness!)
Let Me Hold You - Bow Wow
One Night Stand - Mis-teeq
You Remind Me - Usher
Me & U - Cassie
Always on time - Ja Rue feat Ashanti
etc....

Sigh... Anyone has all these songs in their album? Can I just ninja them off you people?
=P

XOXO!

The Result!

2009-12-08T20:20:00.003+08:00

Remember when I said I wanted to make the Chocolate Molten Lava Cake today. I just made it, and it was awesome!

So simple and quick, took me a total of 45 mins to make all 12 of these tiny babies. I ate 2 of them and stored the rest up in the fridge!

Make these if you like chocolate..

Molten Chocolate Lava cake..

Look at the chocolate oozing out... Love.....

That's all!

The Pioneer Woman and her red cake

2009-12-07T20:39:00.005+08:00

2 months ago, when I found out that my new blog idol, The Pioneer Woman Cooks, is coming out with a cookbook, I just had to have it. So I said very casually and subtle-ly to my boy: 'Baby! I WANT THAT COOKBOOK FOR CHRISTMAS!'

Ok, so that's not very subtle, or casual. But boy, did he deliver. He got me the cookbook and it's a full month before Christmas. I'm totally loving the book. The pictures are awesome. The food looks really yum. And it's written by PW!

So anyways, there's this recipe for Red Velvet Cake in the dessert section. I've seen it in many other cook blogs and I've never tasted it, but it looks so pretty, and vibrantly red. I seriously am thinking of making it and chronicle it in the chapter of 'My First Times in Life'.

Lol..

But anyways, I won't be making that soon. I need to get some cake tins that are smaller in size because the household are not big fans of cakes. So if I do bake it, I would need to make a SMALL cake.

But I will be making this Molten Chocolate Lava Cake from Tasty Kitchen. I will make this tomorrow, with my muffin tins. I have the ingredients all on hand. I like foolproof recipes that even dummies can make. And PW makes it easier with the step by step pictures.

So anyways, that's about it for today.
Have a good week ahead everyone!

XOXO

Inspiration

2009-12-05T22:58:00.002+08:00

I love cooking. For a lazy person like me, it's surprising I like to cook cos cooking can sometimes be tedious and takes up loads of work. But because I like to eat, the interest just grew from there.

I just watched The Julie/Julia Project and it's kind of inspiring. It makes me wanna do something she did. Like a journal through a whole entire cookbook.

Makes me wanna blog more, chronicle more about what's been happening to me. It just annoys me sometimes, when I blog-stalk, that the bloggers dun post as often as the should. i kind of realise how that feels for ppl who read my blog, which I guess is like only a handful (meaning less than 5 ppl).

But still, it would be nice to come to an updated blog once in a while. =)

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So anyways, I will be having a small potluck gathering at my place, cause the parents and sibling is out of town! I am so excited, because I like organising small gatherings like these and I like spending time with friends at home. Less expensive and not crowded like when you go out into the city.

So anyways, I learnt how to make chicken curry from my mom yesterday night and that is what I am gonna make this coming saturday night.

We will be playing this card game (Munchkin) and our Wii games (Guitar hero World Tour and 5). I hope it will be a fun night.. Only thing un-fun about the party is gonna be the cleaning up of the house in preparation of the party.. I will need to clean the rooms, the house, the toilet and the kitchen!

Oh well.. A price to pay for having fun! Will be a fun night of food, laughs and booze. Haha..

That's about it.. Have a great week ahead! Christmas soon!
Can't wait!

Breadisaster...

2009-11-06T18:09:00.003+08:00

I tried...

I really really tried...

But I manage to screw up the most simple no knead bread..

First, I got the timing of rising the dough totally wrong.. Then I had to wake up in the middle of the night to put the dough in the fridge so as to stop it from over-rising.. Finally the outside of the bread is hard as a rock while the inside is totally undercooked...

Grrr..

But I will not give up! WILL NOT! YOU HEAR ME, STINKING YEAST! I WILL CONQUER YOU!

Sigh, now I'm gonna go dig a hole and crawl into it to lick my wounds...

Just kidding...

Have a good weekend guys~!

Signing off,
Vampy Fox

Bread...

2009-11-05T17:01:00.004+08:00

So I made some bread dough today.. It is at home now, rising..

Tomorrow afternoon will be the time to bake the dough.. I hope it goes well.. First time using yeast, and boy, does it stink... I had a look before I left home for work in the afternoon, and it puffed up a little, and there were heaps of bubbles! How cool is that?!?!?

I can't believe dough makes me happy.. Haha..

We shall see how everything turns out tomorrow!

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On another note, yesterday was a pretty bad day for me.. Made me evaluate what I wanna do in the future.. I dunno if I should do something I like (which means starting from scratch) or just do something mediocre that I might not enjoy.. Sigh sigh.. Decisions decisions...

Oh well, I'd probably just wait till the end of the Lunar New Year to decide.. It's hard getting a job now.. Maybe next year would be a better year..

That's about it I guess..

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To all my dear dear friends, please take care of your health.. The world is a crazy crazy place with super viruses now, so remember to take your vitamins, exercise and eat regular meals.. Love ya all.. =)

Signing off,
Vampy Fox

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This picture just totally made my day.. =)

Yawnie is such a sweetie.. Haha.. Cherry, I hope after seeing this, you would know what to do~! *hint* pictures of the 3 I sent you guys *hint*

So....

2009-11-01T16:43:00.002+08:00

Its been almost 3 weeks since I last posted... In this 3 weeks, I did:

- not bake any bread like I intended to
- made some other foods that I did not intend to make
- went for my trip to Bali
- got sick from eating bad seafood on my 2nd night in Bali
- had an awesome Halloween night dressing up as a Vampy vampire

All in all, a good 3 weeks worth of fun.. =P

Anyways, pictures should be up soon in FB once my lazy BF posts them up..

So, that's all for me... What about you guys? Please kindly update your blogs too.. Thank you very much.. =P

Signing off,
Vampy Fox

Hamburger and Mac

2009-10-07T12:46:00.002+08:00

I made some last night... It was yum and I'm still craving for it.. Clearly a huge pot is still not enough to satisfy my craving.. Also, from the start till the end (going to the store to get ingredients and actually finishing the Hamburger Mac) took about a total of 1 hour.. That's a keeper recipe for sure... Sorry no pics.. Was too hungry to actually post it...

Been thinking about making some of these maybe this weekend... I've always wanted to try to make bread, home-made fancy ones.. But yeast scares me... A LOT.... I dunno why but it does.. But this recipe seems simple enough right?

I hope so.. Wish me luck for this weekend.. Will update on the results.. =P

Silly questions...

2009-09-09T16:51:00.002+08:00

I find that girls, me included, sometimes like to ask silly questions. Not silly as in brainless, but silly as in 'a-question-I-am-asking-to-test-you-but-do-not-actually-want-the-truth' type questions...

I asked a silly question yesterday, and the answer I got was totally unexpected. That got me thinking...

How does one know when their partner is the one for them? How do you put all your entire future, love and trust in that person's hand when you are unsure of what might come?

Feelings can come and go for people. Love is a feeling, so what happens when love in a relationship starts to go?

3 little words, I love you, can be said with or without feelings to someone or anyone.

How can one really know? And if we do not know and is afraid of getting hurt, how does one go about protecting yourself from it?

I wonder... Any suggestions?

Monotony...

2009-09-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

Life has settled into monotonous tone and I am bored...

I mean it's a good thing and a bad thing.. Certain things that you look forward to, like not having to wake up early on Wednesdays and Thursdays for work in the morning, and bad things to look forward to like having the whole house to yourself is lonely and it means you have to do some housework.

I have been cooking a lot.... Good in a way that I am improving my skills as a cook, bad in a way that I have no idea what to make for meals sometimes. Also, I've become lazier and not posting the pictures up anymore.. Haha..

I think I need a new hobby.. Or a change of environment.

Oh well, will be meeting Debs for dinner later so I'm currently bored to death just waiting for that girl in my workplace. So close to falling asleep...

Anyways, I will post something more interesting as soon as I have the time, energy and idea.. =P

Right now, this is the ramblings of a sleepy bored person..

Have a great week peoples.. =P

Totally stuck...

2009-08-19T17:18:00.000+08:00

This song is stuck in my head... Awesome cover of the song done.. I already did like the original version by Lil Wayne, but I reckon this is way better.

Also, I like how the lead singer looked in the video.. Geeky with the black glasses, but with piercings and tattoos... HAWT~!

Anyways, enjoy!

ERGH!

2009-08-16T11:56:00.003+08:00

I hate it when you get an ulcer... You can't eat, talk and brush your teeth properly..

What's worst than having an ulcer? It's having 2 huge ass ones next to each other....

GRRRRR!!!! It's torture!!!! But I dun care, gonna enjoy myself with food tonight! Will be doing Korean BBQ (Ivy-style) at home.. =P

Hope everyone had a good weekend..

Btw, the blueberry pancakes were awesome!

My first 2 pancakes!

Making the last Giant pancake!

My yummy brunch for 2!

Tasty Kitchen

2009-08-13T17:26:00.001+08:00

I love to cook. People who know me well enough would know that when I am not feeling lazy and has free time, I would cook/bake/roast.

One of the reason why I really need to watch out for my diet and exercise is due to the fact I love all types of dishes with fattening tags like meat, cream, cheese, pasta, eggs etc..

And I also love looking at pictures of food. Haha.. So it's no surprise that I'm currently hooked on The Pioneer Woman Cooks' newly launched recipe community website, Tasty Kitchen whereby ordinary folks can join as a member and share their recipes. It's kinda like Allrecipes but more colourful.

Anyways, I'm gonna be making blueberry pancakes and soba noodles with grilled scallops and asparagus for the weekend. =)

Btw, I recently made PW's chicken spaghetti casserole and it was fantastic. Easy to make and really worth the wait, especially with the cheese, chicken and flavour. Try it sometime if casseroles are your kinda food. =) Will post pics once I get home..

Thank goodness it's Thursday already, been a loooong week for me.. =) Have a good weekend everyone..

Hmmm...

2009-08-05T09:56:00.001+08:00

I know I haven't been blogging for eons....

I think I might start again...

=P

I have been pretty happy for the past 2 months... Indulging in a few of my hobbies, having fun in the daylight and most of all, having someone to share all these with me.

My school has finally finished, although I think I might flunk like 2/3 subjects but hey, I'm enjoying this before I have to go back for my retests...

As for what I wanna do in the future, I have no idea yet.. All I know right now is that I will see how things goes, living day by day... Not planning so far ahead in life... Just chilling and relaxing...

I think that's all I have to say for now.. =)

Will update with a more detailed post soon...

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I miss her...

2009-05-18T13:59:00.001+08:00

Looking at all of Cherry's animals... I really really miss my little baby....

I will always love you, my baby... Missing you heaps...

=)

2009-04-25T04:33:00.000+08:00

A close friend of mine got engaged on her birthday yesterday..

I am so happy for her.. I also can't help but feel a bit envious.. =P

What I do know is tat, they are both perfect for each other.. =) All the best to you, Miss Carmen, and may the 2 of you be happy always~!

Beautifully Imperfect..

2009-04-21T00:20:00.002+08:00

I love this commercial.. It's the little things that annoys and make you laugh, which matters when you love someone..

Life is short, be sure to tell the one you really care about how much you love them.. =)

Think family...

Holla...

2009-04-19T23:33:00.006+08:00

It's been an exhausting week for me... Have been working from Monday to Sunday with no rest... Come to think of it, it's been a long exhausting month for me..

Seems like heaps have happened, but also seems like it's pretty mundane.. Boring and repetitive... Sigh.. I just know that I'm really tired mentally.. I'm starting to lose interest in school this term after all that has happened to me, makes me question if its the right way to go for me.. I really wanna continue with what I'm doing right now, cause I really love what I am doing.. Guess I'm just feeling discouraged after the plagiarism issue that happened with the school.. But at least I'm not alone, and I have friends who are willing to help screen through my essays for me to check. =P

Went out with all 3 of my monster cousins yesterday. Omg, never bringing them all out again.. Too much work, and I had to constantly look after them, making sure they are not tired, thirsty, hot or cold.. And meh, kids have such a short attention span, gets bored so easily.. Mealtime was a pain too, because they'd rather play with each other and the food, than actually eating it.. Longest lunch I ever had, and I dun mean it in a good way.. But what I did notice was that, they all wanted to tell me stuffs.. So I think if I were to bring them out again, I would just either go out with them individually or just the 2 elder girls..

It was still a fun afternoon, even with all the mischievous stunts, temper tantrums from them.. I did manage to get some clothes and my ear piercing which I've wanted for so long.. =P Ok, not that long, just had the sudden idea to pierce my ear and so I just did it.. I guess, the pain kinda helps a little with how I'm feeling lately.. Lol, sadistic I know, but yea.. i did almost chicken out though, so I'm not entirely really that into the pain..

Anyways, pictures from yesterday.. =)

Ice Coco Milkshake and Orange juice for the kiddies...

Sera's yummy Potato salad toast

My Clam Chowder (which was mostly eaten by the 2 younger monsters..)

Tabby on the left, Sue Ann on the right

Camwhore session while waiting for the food to arrive...

Me and Sera.. =) I feel we can relate more to each other now, cause I think we are kind of alike, but different at the same time.. And alot of things she is going through now, I have gone through.. Like boys, girls backstabbers, school bullies and studies.. =P

*peace*

I love this tom-boyish minx.. =P She's funny, energetic and really independant most times..

This is a classic pic.. Posing for the camera, but not looking at it.. =P All taken while waiting in line for a cab~!

Last but not least...

My new piercing.. =) It's kinda odd I'm doing all these things I wanted to do when I was younger now, but I figured, I am old enough so why not? I'm thinking of getting more though.. On the ear.. Maybe 2 more on each side of my ear lobes.. Hmmm... Not sure... I'm thinking of getting another one below my ring earring.. Having just 1 seems uneven.. Need to pair it up.. Maybe wait till my swelling goes down..

And also, I'm so out of date with the world of body piercing.. There's a lot more areas that you can pierce on your body now.. Weird and freaky areas, but it can be done.. Like for example, the hands (anywhere from the web, to the wrist and to the pads where your fingers ends), the back of your neck, and even on your chest area a few inches below the collar bone... So freaky...

I've been thinking about getting my tongue pierced for the longest time too, but decided aganist it.. Apparently, it's bad for the teeth, gums and even your speech. Also, all your favourite foods will never taste the same again... So for now, I'm gonna just limit my piercings to the ears.. =P

Alright, it's getting late and I should head off now.. Take care of your health everyone, the weather's been super crazy.. Have a good week ahead.. =)

ERGH~! Not again~!!!

2009-04-18T00:47:00.001+08:00

My WoW account got hacked again~! This is the 2nd time already!!! This month just keeps getting better and better...

RAWR! So freaking annoying...

I am tired, going to bed now~! I hate this month~!!!!

I dreamed a dream...

2009-04-16T00:45:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, things are not what they seem to be.. Like they say, never judge a book by its cover..

Watch this video, and you will know what I mean..

I was quite blown away by this lady.. =) Hope you will too..

Susan Boyle

Problems problems problems...

2009-04-14T00:58:00.002+08:00

Life seems to be full of them... Been kinda down past few days because of these problems..

Sigh, but life still goes on right.. Things will definitely pick up.. It's just a phase until I resolve them..

I need a break from my life, I think.. It's starting to wear me down... The constant stress from work, school.. The constant partying and the lack of rest I am getting..

Tired tired tired...

I have a lot on my mind to let out, but too tired to type it.. Maybe next time..

Time for me to get some rest.. Nights everyone...

Have a great week~! =)

Le sigh...

2009-04-09T00:18:00.003+08:00

I'm so bugged down right now... I have to go for a meeting tomorrow in school.. Apparently, almost the whole of my class has been suspected of plagiarism, only with the exception of 1 guy...

I'm feeling scared and angry though.. Dunno what to do now.. Gonna have to take the morning off to see what's gonna happen...

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Also, an instructor at the gym where I learn boxing at has made a move on me... Sigh.. Why can't everyone just be friends? This makes things so awkward... Right now, I just wanna concentrate on finishing up all my loose ends here, so I can embark on a new journey next year when I get into Uni..

So right now I am gonna stay single.. There, I've said it! No boys for me until I say so!!!

Rawr!!

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Anyways, nothing much has happened, other than these 2 things... I am tired, stressed and feeling bruised all over... But I will watch 1 more ep of True Blood before I sleep.. Haha...

Have a great weekend everyone..

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P.S. The instructor just admitted to having feelings for me 15 mins after writing this post.. I rejected him as nicely as I can because I dun want any awkwardness... Sigh... So annoying~! WHY ME!?!?!?!? I'm not even that good to begin with... Grrr...

P.S.S. Grats on being the defending champions again, Mr Vu.. You guys put in the hard work and truly deserved it.. Have a great time rubbing it in other team's face! =P I'm happy for you...

True Blood

2009-04-08T00:55:00.002+08:00

I'm so hooked on it.. It's very weird, scary but sucks you into it.. (no pun intended)

Hmm...

Anyways, have a good Easter weekend!

Love story...

2009-04-04T23:32:00.003+08:00

When we were younger, we read and watch fairy tales.. As time goes by, your naive expectations in life are destroyed by people in your life, and you'll realise that life is not a fairy tale at all, the hard way.

As much I hate to admit it, I've always like romantic love stories, but I've never had any.. I've always tried to be practical about things but lately, I've been thinking.. Maybe that shouldn't be a goal in my life. Maybe this is a good time for me to learn to not yearn for so much company and be too dependent on any guy.

I've been in 2 serious relationships and I've learnt heaps about men and myself. =) I wouldn't trade anything in the world for those relationships..

I hope to fall in love again though.. The feeling is always nice.. While it lasts.. =P

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Relationships are so weird.. Not just between boyfriends and girlfriends, but also between friends, lovers and family.

You can be really close one moment, and then things happen and you hardly ever speak. Lol.. Everyone has that type of situation in their lives, no one knows how to solve the problem though.. One of earth's many mysteries... I guess it still all boils down to 1 thing.. Humans... I always say, they are really complex.. We're all the same, yet different...

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Met up with Nice this afternoon to have lunch and movie with him today before he flies off to Japan and then US for a whole month~! Lucky bastard... Anyways, we had a good chat and were crapping about heaps of random stuffs all the way.. Lol.. We played Guitar Hero before our movie to kill time cause we were bored and didn't want to do too much walking.. It's so fun, I'm so gonna get the game...

Watched The Unborn and it's seriously a scary show.. I screamed a few times and even toppled my popcorn over.. Haha... All in all, a pretty good day.. =) Nice to hang out with people you seldom see once in a while..

I've gone back to starting my driving lessons too.. I really wanna get a license before I go to Australia cause I heard the system there is really F-ked up.. And also cause Debs just got her license 3 days ago.. Great job Debs!! I expect to be driven around from now on, ok~?!

To sum up my current situation now, it's going pretty alright.. I can't really complain cause nothing bad has happened and everyone is happy and healthy.. But then I do miss some of my friends... Those few that I've gotten to know and really liked hanging out with and those I haven't hung out with in a while.. They should know who they are but I guess it's better this way.. We all have our lives.. =)

Hope everyone is happy.. Take care of your health and remember to show your loved ones how much you care because life is short.. You'll never know what tomorrow brings.. =) Peace out...

Exhausted...

2009-04-02T00:21:00.007+08:00

As much as you wanna be positive and all, sometimes you feel so physically tired... And when you're physically tired, you become mentally tired and your mind start to wonder...

Oh well, I'm still fine.. Heheheheheh...

Anyways, gonna head off to shower then sleep! Training tomorrow again..

Booyah~!

It's almost the weekends, have a great one for me, aites people?

PEACE!!!!
XOXO

P.S. Omg, I finally found this song.. I used to love this song~! The old skool hip hop were soooooooo much better than the stuffs today... Reminisce ftw~! I wanna go dancing again... =( Anyway, enjoy.....

Family..

2009-04-01T16:55:00.003+08:00

Seriously, as much as you wanna be nice and love them, they can be downright annoying and noob most times..

Mom just pissed me off with the way she always is with her incessant nagging.. GRRRR...

I mean seriously, she puts me down like I'm worth nothing. And being in an asian family means nothing I do is ever right or good enough.. Sigh..

I dunno but all I know is I can't wait till I move out of the house.. Maybe she'll miss me and realise I'm not so bad after all..

Talk talk and more talk...

2009-03-31T23:42:00.002+08:00

It's nice to talk to people and get their opinions. 1 situation can be seen and interpreted in many many ways..

Like for example, to 1 friend, I'm attention seeking.. I do agree, to a certain extent only.. I am trying to attract certain person's attention. Another friend said that it could be mistaken for attention seeking-ness and goes on to tell me what's so bad about it..

Oh well, I guess I should stop being that because it's not working.. But it's alright.. =)

As much as things have been bugging me, I've decided to just be cool about things... Now I have to work towards finishing this last term of my studies, before I can start applying for Uni.. Then I can start planning for the future once I've gotten a spot in the desired uni..

I need to start being more optimistic. I need to be more active, socially and physically. Exercise makes me happy and helps me lose the fats I've accumulated. Being lazy makes me sad and when I'm sad, I eat..

I need to start taking care of myself. =) Been popping supplements like they're candy, hoping it will help with the mood swings, overall well-being and helping my metabolism work normally. I think I have to love myself first before I can start loving anyone..

Will be playing less WoW I think, cos it makes me feel lazy and emo... Dunno why but it does... I wanna start taking up swimming.. So many things to do, so little time..

I think I'm rambling... Training was pretty tough.. I can already feel the strain and I can say very proudly, I did not slack today!!! Did everything and I'm happy.. Maybe when I finally get to my ideal weight of 48kg, I will feel more confident about myself.. That's a total of 4 kgs and I will go back to being underweight, but I think I will be happy...

Hmmm... Anyways, I;d better stop now.. Not sure what I'm writing.. Hahaha... Good night everyone.. Have an awesome week..

I can't...

2009-03-30T22:30:00.002+08:00

think straight now.. My head hurts... But not as much as my heart hurts... Seriously, I should stop all these things... It's only making my life more complicated than it should..

My existence should be fairly simple, make friends, study, get a good job and that's it... So why then do I have all these complicated feelings going through me?

Sigh.. I think I'm babbling..

I'm feeling scared actually... Of change.. I know change is good sometimes... But it's change in people that scares me.. Change in the situations that scare me...

Because these are things you cannot control, which makes you vulnerable when it happens, and you can't do shit about it.

Like friends for example... You think you know them, and then situations change and suddenly, you feel like you dunno them anymore.. That's how I lost a few friends... Also with relationships, you give your all into it.. Listen to him, give up everything you love for him.. Then situation changes, and he decides he doesn't want you anymore, and you're left alone again...

I hate feeling lonely.. But I feel alone so much... Even when I'm with friends, and I try to blend in, be happy and cheerful... Sometimes, you feel like you dun belong...

Sigh... I'm so so tired.. Can I just go into a dreamless slumber and never awake from it...?

Lol...

2009-03-26T23:53:00.002+08:00

I just majorly pissed my dear dear brother off.. By accidentally deleting 50gb worth of animes he downloaded.. HAHAHA...

Oh well, it was accidental, and it can be downloaded again... So wat's the big deal for him to go all emo?

Boys will always be boys..

And in my defense, I was just doing wat he told me to after using the external hard drive.. He gave me a lecture on always deleting all the files I put on after using it, and it was only 1 folder which I left in there.. So after that, I always cleaned everything out..

How was I to know that he transferred his animes into the thing... I used it and then cleaned it out.. Just wat he told me to.. Not my fault I was clueless about it... Granted I should have been more careful but it was 1 something in the morning dammit!

Oh well, seems like I have to avoid him on the weekends then... Lol.. Which means no WoW for me unless I wanna use tat crappy PC which will drive me insane!

Lol.. Have a great weekend everyone!

I feel...

2009-03-24T23:28:00.004+08:00

happy... Tired but happy... =) I dunno why but I;ve been laughing and smiling a lot today.. Maybe because I've been hanging out with frineds today... I love all my friends... Heehee..

Was bored at work before and did something I seldom would do.. I took pictures of myself.. The big eyes, close up type self portrait.. Never knew my eyes are so big.. Fully loved the colour of my eyes tho.. =P

Because this is my blog, I'm gonna post one up because I can and because I think I am cute!! And also because I love myself! Haha.. Enjoy the rest of the week~!

XOXO from Foxyspirit!